Thursday, January 17, 2013
I Can Do Anything I Set My Mind To
So, in two days I will be running my second half marathon. I did the Mercedes half last year, but I did not run the whole race. Well, I will be running the whole race this time. I was talking to my counselor the other day telling her that I am scared to death. She asked me of what and I told her of not being able to run the whole race. She asked my why was I worried and I thought about it and realized it is because I am afraid I will convince myself I cannot do it. If you are a runner, you know that 99% of your run is your mind. It is more of a mental battle than a physical battle. I have a agument in my head every run trying to convince myself I can't do it, or I am ready to quit. Well I know that in 13.1 miles there is going to be a lot of mental battles. As I was talking to her I said "I have no doubt that I can run this whole race"......Wow, she looked at me and said "Do you realize what you just said?"... I was like "What"... and she said "You just said that you have no doubt that you can run the whole race".... Wow...so what is my problem then....I am going to tell you what it is ....I have failed and let myself down and so much in my life and I am scared of failing. I am scared of convincing myself during this race that I cannot do it. My counselor gave me, I think the best advice anyone could give me. She told me to have a plan for how I will handle the situation if I want to quit. Like what will I think about or tell myself to pull me through it. This is such a HUGE deal for me to run this whole race. Like in my head if I don't run the whole thing, then I might as well not even do it. I want to prove to myself that if I set my mind to it I can do ANYTHING!!!!!! I will be writing Phillippians 4:13 on my arm.."I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I think this will help me in a huge way. So when I want to give up and quit I can read this and know that without Him, I would have never lost my weight or gotten to where I am in my life. I know that He will get me through this, He has gotten me through every single run I have done. This is going to be amazing and I cannot WAIT to cross that finish line!!!!! I almost get tears in my eyes right now thinking of the feeling I will get when I cross it......I never ever thought I could do this...I mean I never thought that I was worth the fight, deserved to accomplish anything or be worth the fight. So I will run 13.1 miles, I will run the whole race and it will be amazing. I will have one of my biggest fans and supports by my side with me and how awesome that will be. She ran by my side and crossed the finish line with me in my first 5K and has been one of my biggest fans and supporters and I love her for it. Jennifer, we got this I am gonna do this and I am so glad I get to do ith with YOU!!!!!!!!
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Lindsay,
ReplyDeleteGreat blog post. As I read your post it reminded me of my first marathon. I was so jacked up for it..and like a typical dude over estimated my abilities. It wasn't until half way into the race that my body let me down and eventually my fears would take over. The race was so bad that I did stop and walk. I thought about quitting many times. Shoot I was no longer running so quitting would be the next best thing. That was until I came into China Town and realized that what I was afraid of was not quitting..but having to reach further down and finding that next level.
I ended up painfully walk/running to the finish line. But as soon as I crossed that line I knew I had beaten my fears. I finished and no matter how ugly and I did something special.
A half and/or full marathon is broken into three segments Tactical, mental and heart. Each step is important to accomplishing ones goals and overcoming the wall. Perhaps the fear is not to stop..but perhaps its about willing yourself onto that next level.
I have a feeling that you will find that inner strength to find that next level. :)